QUOTE(Momma Goose @ Aug 8 2007, 07:05 AM)

Don't you dare!!!!
This is something that requires support. I'm just getting started. How are you doing? I know that you have been tempted, are you hanging tight?
If you don't want to do this on the full board, then PM and we can talk that way.
I know that there are alot of cheerleaders out there. Aren't there???
You know what we can do for our health if we can make it through the gluten free diet. Smoking is just the same. We have made it to the top of one mountain, this is just another one. It can be done!
So...hang in there with me. Well, first off, I didn't start this thread, but it was perfect timing for me, so I jumped on. I would think (based on what I've seen here and there on the board) that there would be plenty of people who are battling this or at least contemplating the battle.
Smokers are a strange breed. It's something you want and need desperately. The fact is that it's a lot more than a physical addiction. The habit is much harder to break than the addiction (at least for me). I pretty much broke the addiction. It only takes one sparkle of doubt to break your stride. My husband woke up this morning with the same doubts that I did. We stopped smoking, yes - until now. Support is necessary, yes - but I wasn't necessarily expecting a bunch of support here. There are those encouraging me on another thread - and I appreciate that they are lending their support, and I feel some shame in falling off the wagon. Non-smokers want to see you quit, but unless they know you, why would a non-smoker offer any encouragement? Current smokers are too ashamed of themselves to offer encouragement because they feel they don't have much to offer - I know ... I've been there too.
I'll tell you what's happened to this point. The first few days went swimmingly. No problems at all. Day 5 came and so did the doubts. Yesterday was almost impossible. I just wanted that smoke break. A moment to clear my mind and not fight it. I chose, yesterday, to fight all day. I was worn out from the battle by the time I woke up this morning. We didn't stick to the program. We were going to exercise - we were going to do activities to keep us busy - breathing exercise, and so on. So, after talking ourselves out of buying a pack and then talking ourselves back into it - like 5 times, we settled on buying a pack. I've smoked 2 cigarettes already. My throat is dry and sore already. It went straight to my head. I could actually feel the nicotine filter through my body and it immediately made me dizzy. I'm going to get back on the wagon this afternoon, because I know this is something I really want and need. One day of breaking the cycle can't kill the momentum. We'll have to get our heads back on straight and try again. I didn't break because of a lack of support here, althought it's a convenient excuse. I broke because I didn't have the fortitude to fight it today. I became weak.
Momma Goose - I think that it's important that you and I understand that the habit is the one you need to take care of - especially if you're using Chantix. I believe that the chantix site has support that you can take advantage of too. We've realized that it's our thoughts that have done us in this time. You have to get control of your thoughts first and foremost. Thankfully, I have my husband for support - and he has me, although, he's a smoker too, and is having as difficult a transition as I am.
You can do it Momma Goose ... I'll be here - we can pm if that works out for you. Make a plan - stick to it at all costs. I'm going back for another try. I have to get back up on the horse - it's that or slowly wreck my system with oxidation and free-radical chaos.
Nikki - I just saw your post. I don't think I'll be using the nicorette except in emergencies. I say that now, but keep changing my mind on that one. But, I think it's my thoughts. That's what killed the effort today. You've been free since Easter. I feel confident that you can keep it up. Keep that nicorette in your back pocket. It's better than smoking.
I'll not give up !